You just can’t take it anymore…
It’s 3am. This isn’t the first night you’ve found yourself staring at the ceiling with a gazillion thoughts RACING at the speed of light going through your head. In fact, it’s been like this all week. And if you really think about it, it’s been on this continuous pattern for years.
Most days you feel okay, and then something totally random will set you off. Maybe it’s thinking about that presentation you have to give at work, a friend’s tweet, or that person you’ve been crushing on who hasn’t responded to your text just posted a new story and you know damn well they did it on their phone.
You sit with it alone, letting the thoughts INVADE every single aspect of your life. They’re UNINVITED, but they don’t care. They just come in a trample on all your hard work, telling you . They tell “That report isn’t good enough.” Or when you back out of the girl’s trip last minute because the anxiety is so high you’re ready to pull out your hair it says, “They’re all mad and talking about you behind your back.”
Some of them know, but even the ones who do DON’T fully UNDERSTAND. They don’t get why you “choose” to be at home alone, binging Netflix, rather than out at the bar or on that all-inclusive trip they booked on that discount site. Clearly that would get rid of bad mood. They don’t realize while they’re all talking and laughing, trying to flirt and pair off with the group that just bought you a round, that you’re replaying a conversation you had with your mom from a week ago. Or that just the thought of having to get dressed to go out with them or decide what to pack, TWISTS your stomach up in KNOTS that make you THINK YOU’RE DYING and need the emergency room.
You’ve tried to explain it to them. You’ve even played songs to your friends where the singer described EXACTLY everything you go through DAILY. Your friends tell you to just get over it already, your family asks, “Haven’t you grown out of that by now?” You’re TIRED of trying to make people understand and ditching all the stuff you WANT to do.
Anxiety is a thin stream of fear trickling through the mind. If encouraged, it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained.
* Arthur Somers Roche
I GET IT… that you’re feeling an OVERWHELMING WORRY that you’re going to fail, be exposed, forget something, that there’s going to be a crowd at the event that’s so big that you get crushed and can’t breathe or that you’ll have to actually answer the boss’s question in front of a room full of people when you’re not prepared. I know that cancelling another outing or waiting by your phone hoping that your friend calls to cancel first is NOT the way you want to live your life.
I also know that WORRY or ANXIETY hits every person a little differently. The center of your knot is not the same as than the woman sitting next to you. I work specifically with women experiencing anxiety because I know how DRAINING it can be.
My goal is to help you cut through the thoughts that feed your anxiety. So that you can START LIVING your life, a life that with each grain of JOY you experience isn’t overshadowed with the catastrophe your mind is telling you awaits around the corner.